Sometimes it is easy to sit and get out my emotional stress through more eloquently put words than these. But now is not one of those times.
I was fine earlier. Now...It sucks. Blog, my heart really hurts. Really. There's so much of it and I just want to be able to walk outside and keep going through the sucky Utah winter night air until I'm numb with hypothermia. It's so easy to pretend to be happy and fine during the day when I'm around everyone else, because I can be focused on meeting their expectations and keeping them happy. But at night when I'm alone I feel it all over and over and wish I could just melt away forever.